Fail

To put it bluntly today was shit..
I woke up to 3 texts which made me briefly happy, but then i opened them and one was to tell me my plans had been cancelled and the others wern't from the person i wanted it to be.

So i got up watched some pointless drama about American teenagers who think they have problems..

Then i went to sleep for a main part of the day i was trying to ignore a horrible feeling i had like a sad feeling that somethings missing or i dunno just something is unsettling me.
I also realised this evening just how closed i can be towards people trying to help and then i try too hard with the people who are trying to keep stuff from me its a weird little cycle and i really really now dislike being asked whats wrong unless you know the person who asked really cares.

anyway on with my day after i woke up my sister reminded me we were going out for dinner for my brothers birthday so i did my make-up hair and changed, it was nice to be out with my family i guess you realise that no matter what happens or whoever lets you down they will always be there for you.

That kinda sums up my day to be honest except for that i successfully downloaded photoshop and remembered just how shit i am at it ;), had a failure of a conversation with the person i like and now my eyes are stinging cos im so tired,which doesn't help my failure of a mood right now and im hoping i cheer up before it hits 2.am, or ill have sat here in a bad mood for like half an hour.

Hmm, anyways lets hope saturdays a better day/night.