The winds of change.

My blogs are becoming few and far between recently and thats mainly because ive had alot of inspiration but no desire to actualy write down whats going on in my silly little head, im convinced ive gotten this habit of keeping my feelings locked up from my dad.
He' never one to speak openly or tell me he loves me or even show it, but if i look closer he really does show it, theres not many people out there who dont have to pay for their first cars or that still get given money for christmas and holidays i often think its strange how people display their emotions.

Its weird I've been thinking about everything so much recently that ive kinda forgotten why i even started these blogs because when i have a hint of inspiration i tend to just mull it over untill i come to some kind of resolution in my own head, i rarely speak my mind or tell anyone whats really wrong or even ask for advice on my problems, i think this is mainly because when my ideas are in my head they are all mine, like no one can judge them or make fun of the way i view things, but as soon as you open up your thoughts and feelings on things you are automaticaly judged. I've learnt alot in the past week about judging people by the way in which they first present themselves, we all put on a face when we first meet someone we say that we wont judge anyone before we get to know them but thats never the truth someones body languange can automaticly set your judgement off on the wrong foot.

I've been so busy with college and patching up holes in my friendships that ive kept alot of judgement aside on whats happening around me, i dont from day to day listen to my thoughts very much, so my days kind of just slip by without me paying alot of attention to them, this is where i find myself failing to notice things, such as upsetting the people i care about the most or realising that i really should do some college work or ill be shooting myself in the foot.
On a more positive note i do have my laptop back and im incredibly happy with the way things are at the moment and im really excited because i just got into a new relationship :D!!

however my laptop keeps making a funny noise but im not sure what it is or where its coming from!

Also i dropped my phone in a puddle today! i was sooooooo gutted i literally went to put it in my pocket and bobs your uncle it fell out of my hand :(, so off we went to vodafone and all they did was give me a crappy repair phone and tell me to go on my way and wait a week.

enough of my ramblings im off to work :)<3