Its funny how theres so much stuff running around my head that even driving my car sparks off my little brain, i often end up completely running on auto pilot and just doing things automaticaly.
I wish my life ran like this really i wish i could just ignore the way i feel about people, i wish i could turn back time and then freeze it on the good parts.
I wish i didnt find it so hard to be with someone and just be myself. I always thought i was a realist, but ive recently discovered im a hoarder of memories and baggage i never forget things i never let feelings just fade and i always regret the way i treat people and i just cannot find contentness within myself at the moment.
Everything seems pretty shit to be honest and i really don't know in what direction im gonna head but all i know is for tonight this will be a very depressing blog about a problem that no one would even remotely care about but its making me unhappy confused and guilty but i guess ill try and sleep it off.
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